💧 Deers tears are made of light 💧
Losing a friend hurts more than losing a lover.
I’m running out of distractions. I require constant distraction and to be hyperfixated or I start to derail very quickly.
What if I never find a place and people where I belong? What if I will be alone and lonely for the rest of my life? What if that's all there will ever be?
Have you ever been THE emotional support for someone and that same person betrays you? lol right.
*looking up how to deal with loneliness*
All internet pages, doctors, and experts: "Talk to a friend, tell your loved ones about your feelings. :)"
Me: ... Okay, which part of loneliness do you not understand!?!
One sided friendships are my pet peeve. I put everything in to everyone and I can't even get the bare minimum in return. People are way too two faced nowadays.
I want someone to brush a tear away from my cheek,
Like I am loved,
Somehow, by somebody,
Even if it is a lie.
Why is it so easy to cast me out?
Why is it when I express my emotions, I’m in the wrong?
Why is acceptable for others to express their emotions in the same way and they gain sympathy but I get cast out?
It’s not fair. Everyone always finds it so easy to be angry with me, to shut me out, to give me the silent treatment, to hold grudges against me and cut me off.
If it was someone else, they’d let it slide. But with me, I’m always the one who gets cast out. Why? Why is it so easy to do that to me? Why are people not afraid to lose me? Am I that worthless and meaningless in people’s lives? To my friends, to my family - am I that worthless?
Why is it so easy to abandon me? People find it so easy to just cut me loose, almost as though I’m not much of a loss at all.
It’s so lonely.
It hurts when the person who you want to spend your time with doesn't want to spend theirs with you.
I wish I would belong somewhere. A friend group. A relationship.
But I never belong anywhere. I'm always just an outsider.